Wednesday, 12 May 2010!
Yours truely on; 11:08 pm
Have been feeling really down down down for the past 5 days.
emo la =( is so not my kind of thing.
I'm so emotionally affected.
I have been keeping all the feelings in my heart for few months, I did not even tell Joseph about it.
Realize that I used the wrong approaches to hide all my feelings and created a lot of misunderstandings.
It was the first time that someone criticize my character.
and it hurts
a lot a lot.
Although all the misunderstanding are cleared but I can't help feeling sad.
I care a lot on how other people think about me.
This time round, I refused to cry, swallowing all the tears.
Skip school for a few days already.
I want to make sure that I am emotionally stable first, I dont want to burst out crying in school. No one will pity me, I will only look stupid and weak.
Met my Secondary school mates and I felt more comforted.
At least I know inside my heart that I'm not like what she said
Joseph said that I'm different, no longer the happy girl that he knows.
Wish that I can get over with it soon.
I miss the happy me.
Where are you?
Feels so insecure now, how I wish I can spend 24/7 with Joseph.Things that I ordered and look forward to receive.
Hopefully it will make me happier.(I'm becoming so materialistic)
urban decay 24/7 eyeliner
eye make up removal
my favourite elf blush in glow!
EOS grey contact lens. EOS lens are super comfy! Order for Jo too
White dress
and many many more items. (to be exact 20 more, opps. )
All the items that I listed above are ordered from different websites, imagine how much time I spend online shopping.
and how much money I spent. Oh no.
Don't have any income now but
I cannot stop buying things online.
I forget all the sadness when I'm shopping online. pathetic huh?
