heart.
We are in love
MADLY
TRULY
DEEPLY
JOSEPH LEE AND JASLIN QUEK
18/12/2007
Monday, 16 August 2010!
Yours truely on; 1:32 am
My life is filled with happy moments but
Why do I come here only when I'm really upset?
I was kpo and click on their fb profile, saw something that thrashed my self esteem.
Posted these recently on facebook
"I'm always late for more than an hour but for the past 2years and 8months you have never got angry. Instead you told me that 等你我很幸福 ♥"
"My life is awesome! I have a loving boyfriend, friends who are always there for me when I scream for help, a comfortable home, lots of luckkk to get into my choice of school, co. and results. ♥"A reminder for myself that I'm happy and should continue to be appreciative of what I'm given and what I have.
I need to stop thinking about what I saw just now.
Please don't haunt me...
Monday, 9 August 2010!
Yours truely on; 12:53 am
I kept quiet
Chose to isolate myself before they outcast me
Does it make a difference anyway?
I'm still the extra, the boring one.Is a fight against emotions
I know I'm capable of contributing more
but I was emotionally strained.
Low self-esteem.
I felt stupid.
The constant urge to cry.
Overwhelmed by sadness
My heart sank.
I dreaded every part of it.
I was scared.
Shivered as
their anger and dissatisfaction poured down on me.
Is over, please tell me that is over.
I need reassurance.
Monday, 26 July 2010!
Yours truely on; 12:34 am
Hello blog!
I believe this coming week will be the most stressful and busiest week in my poly life.
Year 3 Semester 1 Week 15 I'm here to defeat you!
Not sure whether I can do it but I guess I have no other choice but to make my way through.
Celebrated grandma's 79 birthday today and she prepared a lot of food for us.
I ate a lot, mutton soup, chicken broth, chicken rice, prawns!!!
I loves my grandma a lot!
She is my second favourite person in this world, no prize guessing who is the first.
Really hope that I can celebrate with her for another 15 more years.
=)
As usual, I have been spending a lot of money. Opps.
I'm officially broke now, I dont have a single cent in my wallet and only left
with a miserable amount of money in my bank.
So recently I have been on a mask craze! Put mask for 4 times this week.
Went to buy the apricot scrub today to exfoliate my face, so my skin can absorb the mask essence better.
Read a lot of good reviews about this apricot scrub years ago but finally laid my hands on it today!
I forgot that I was broke and Jo had to remind me that I don't have any money left in my wallet. Joseph paid for it! (Thanks love<3)>
My review:
This scrub is really amazing and value for money. I believe it can last me for half a year(recommended usage is once a week).
Is actually a face scrub but I used it on my body too. Scrubs helps to rub away your dead skin.
I find that the "sand" is too coarse and it hurts a little when I scrub it on my face.
After I rinsed it off, my leg is slightly fairer.
Both my face and legs became amazingly smooth too.
I wouldn't say is like baby skin but when I glided my finger on my face, it was slippery.
I love the smells too. Apricot! Yummy.
Off to put my apricot mask <3
Happy 2 Years 7 Months and 1 Week Joseph!
Just can't get enough of you
Labels: apricot scrub
Wednesday, 12 May 2010!
Yours truely on; 11:08 pm
Have been feeling really down down down for the past 5 days.
emo la =( is so not my kind of thing.
I'm so emotionally affected.
I have been keeping all the feelings in my heart for few months, I did not even tell Joseph about it.
Realize that I used the wrong approaches to hide all my feelings and created a lot of misunderstandings.
It was the first time that someone criticize my character.
and it hurts
a lot a lot.
Although all the misunderstanding are cleared but I can't help feeling sad.
I care a lot on how other people think about me.
This time round, I refused to cry, swallowing all the tears.
Skip school for a few days already.
I want to make sure that I am emotionally stable first, I dont want to burst out crying in school. No one will pity me, I will only look stupid and weak.
Met my Secondary school mates and I felt more comforted.
At least I know inside my heart that I'm not like what she said
Joseph said that I'm different, no longer the happy girl that he knows.
Wish that I can get over with it soon.
I miss the happy me.
Where are you?
Feels so insecure now, how I wish I can spend 24/7 with Joseph.Things that I ordered and look forward to receive.
Hopefully it will make me happier.(I'm becoming so materialistic)
urban decay 24/7 eyeliner
eye make up removal
my favourite elf blush in glow!
EOS grey contact lens. EOS lens are super comfy! Order for Jo too
White dress
and many many more items. (to be exact 20 more, opps. )
All the items that I listed above are ordered from different websites, imagine how much time I spend online shopping.
and how much money I spent. Oh no.
Don't have any income now but
I cannot stop buying things online.
I forget all the sadness when I'm shopping online. pathetic huh?
Thursday, 11 February 2010!
Yours truely on; 11:14 pm
Lack of updates over here.
I'm a happy happy kid and too lazy to blog.
Jo is going Malaysia tmr to celebrate cny for the first time with his father.
He seems so upset to leave me for just one week, feel so bless.
Looking forward to study date with Ball and Kitty tomorrow, hope that we will not get too distracted.
